week three

This is week three. We are still making it. Today was tough. Today, Tommy jr. turned seven without his daddy. He cried a few times today because he misses his dad. He even said that daddy made his bday sad. I felt so bad for him. Poor kid. Tommy did call him this morning to wish him a happy bday...I was SO surprised. I figured he'd forget. He always has. I'm sure someone reminded him. He gets the kids tomorrow morning after he picks up the rest of his stuff. I'm not even sure what the rest of his stuff is...I just know he's coming for it. I dread seeing him. Life would be much easier for me if I never had to hear from him again. Of course I know that the kids need their dad and I want them to have him. I just wish he was a better man...a better example for them to follow. After this I don't want a relationship with another man for a long time but I pray that in God's time there will be a man who will love me and the kids the way we deserve to be loved. A man who will be faithful to God and faithful to his family. A man who can teach my boys how to be Godly men and who can show my girl what a Godly man is really like. There has to be a real Christian man out there somewhere who is meant just for us. I ask that those of you who are praying for us please continue to do so. We are looking forward to a brighter future but I still feel like we are in the shadows.