So....Is there anyone out there who can look back on the expectaions they had of their lives and say...this is exactly how I thought it would be? If so...SHUT THE HECK UP!!!!! I don't wanna hear from you!
I, for one, am COMPLETELY dumbfounded at the way things have turned out so far! For starters...I am NOT a famous country singer..I mean, really, who saw that coming? I am not rich. In fact I am beyond broke. I have four kids. Who has that many kids? Don't get me wrong. I LOVE my kids! I wouldn't give them back for anything...well most days anyway. Some days I wonder how I have let them live this long.
I am married to a man that I ADORE. I would spend every waking second with him if I could. Unfortunately...he would spend every waking second with his motorcycle...or his buddies who also have motorcycles. I DON'T like motorcycles. I think they are rolling death traps. But that is just my humble opinion.
My house is too small... My bills are too big. My patience is too short... I could go on and on.
This is the part where I appear all righteous and say that I am happy with what I have. If that is what you are expecting then I suggest that you stop reading now! Beacause I want MORE!
I want more patience. I want more money. I want more SPACE! I want more time. I want more energy. I want MORE darn it! is that too much to ask?
I want to enjoy my life...and not just on pay day! I want to have fun with the kids without getting a headache. I want my hubby to arrange a baby sitter and plan a date just because he wants to be alone with me. I want to pay my bills on time....maybe even early. I want to always have gas in the car. I want to be caught up with the laundry and the dishes. I want to walk barefoot on my wooden floors WITHOUT stepping on some unidentified icky mess left by the little ones. I want to speak and have people remember what I said and maybe even be interested in it. I want to sing and have people want to hear it...and maybe even hear it again. I want to feel like I have enough energy to make it another day and not just another 5 minutes.
I just want more. Don't you?
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