Monday, March 7, 2011

Not What I thought it Would Be

So....Is there anyone out there who can look back on the expectaions they had of their lives and say...this is exactly how I thought it would be? If so...SHUT THE HECK UP!!!!! I don't wanna hear from you!
I, for one, am COMPLETELY dumbfounded at the way things have turned out so far! For starters...I am NOT a famous country singer..I mean, really, who saw that coming? I am not rich. In fact I am beyond broke. I have four kids. Who has that many kids? Don't get me wrong. I LOVE my kids! I wouldn't give them back for anything...well most days anyway. Some days I wonder how I have let them live this long.
I am married to a man that I ADORE. I would spend every waking second with him if I could. Unfortunately...he would spend every waking second with his motorcycle...or his buddies who also have motorcycles. I DON'T like motorcycles. I think they are rolling death traps. But that is just my humble opinion.
My house is too small... My bills are too big. My patience is too short... I could go on and on.
This is the part where I appear all righteous and say that I am happy with what I have. If that is what you are expecting then I suggest that you stop reading now! Beacause I want MORE!
I want more patience. I want more money. I want more SPACE! I want more time. I want more energy. I want MORE darn it! is that too much to ask?
I want to enjoy my life...and not just on pay day! I want to have fun with the kids without getting a headache. I want my hubby to arrange a baby sitter and plan a date just because he wants to be alone with me. I want to pay my bills on time....maybe even early. I want to always have gas in the car. I want to be caught up with the laundry and the dishes. I want to walk barefoot on my wooden floors WITHOUT stepping on some unidentified icky mess left by the little ones. I want to speak and have people remember what I said and maybe even be interested in it. I want to sing and have people want to hear it...and maybe even hear it again. I want to feel like I have enough energy to make it another day and not just another 5 minutes.
I just want more. Don't you?

Play Station #3 Every Mother's NIGHTMARE

I have no idea who thought up video games. However, I am thinking of doing a little research on the subject just so I can send the jerk wad a nasty letter.
You would think that something that can keep your children occupied for hours at a time would be greatly appreciated by most mothers. Most mothers do not live in my house and are not married to my husband... who incedentally is the owner of said play station 3 and lets NO ONE forget it. I have four children IF you don't count my husband. Three of my children are boys ranging in age from 3 to 8 years old. Thank GOD the 20 month old girl hasn't figured out how to use the ps3 controller as of yet.
Now you may be assuming that the problem is wasted hours all tied up in violent and gory games. If so, you would be wrong. The problem is that the little ones can't take turns and the big one doesn't know how to share. That may evoke a tiny giggle...Let me assure you that this is serious and is no laughing matter. It has gone so far that the boys aren't allowed to play the ps3 at all. My husband has a safe that is made for holding guns....big guns. Apparently, this safe is also made for holding Playstation game discs and controllers becasue they are all inside. Not even I, the QUEEN of the castle, am able to access the safe. No, Only the king has the combination for the safe. This way I can't secretly allow the kids to have hours of mind rotting, soul defiling fun playing his ps3 while he isn't home.
So, now the kids whine and beg and I am impotent to ablige them. I also am unable to get to the guns...just in case the need to protect my family should arise...but hey... all the games are in their cases and the cases are in their places and all is right with the world.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

I'm cleaning in spurts today. I clean for about an hour and then goof off with the little ones for a few minutes and then clean some more! This just might work!

Monday, February 28, 2011

TO School or NOT to School...That is the question

So, I have a big decision to make and I don't know what to do. Right now my kids go to a Christian school. I used to homeschool them but that all got to be too much to handle so I had to send them to school. Even before we had kids we didn't like the idea of having to send them to public school.
There are a few problems with the current arrangement.
The biggest problem is that neither one of the boys can read very well at this point. Isaac just turned 8 and Tommy will be 7 in a few months. Tommy is learning to read slowly but is making progress. Isaac is having real problems. He is unable to sound out the words. He's trying to memorize the words by sight and not by the sounds the letters make. That doesn't sound so bad until you think of just how many words there are in the english language. That's a lot of memorization.
Another issue is that they rarely go on field trips or have any kind of fun activities together. They don't even have any playground equipment. I feel like the kids may be missing out on a lot.
At the same time there are lots of good things to consider.
It is a CHRISTIAN school. All of their lessons are centered on God. I love that.
The curriculum is Paces from Accelerated Christian Education. They are allowed to learn and progress at their own pace. This makes the reading problem not seem like such a big deal. Because they can go at their own pace, I know they will eventually learn to read as long as they stay in this program.
The problem with that is that we have two more kids coming up right behind them. There is no way we can afford to send them all four there. We can barely afford the tuition and books for Isaac and Tommy. I don't have any idea how it will be possible to pay for the younger two.
I do have the option of home schooling again. There are some things I could change that would make it more manageable than it was before. It would definitely be cheaper than paying the tuition. I'm just not sure I can handle it. Home schooling is NOT easy!
I really don't know what to do. No matter how hard I try, I just can't feel comfortable with the idea of sending them to public school...for many reasons. But I'm afraid that I may have to. It may be the only option if I don't home school them again.
What to do...what to do?

I HATE housework!

So right now there's about a million dirty dishes in my kitchen and my garbage can is about to overflow. I can see no floor in my laundry room and the living room is filled with toys. My house is a wreck! Of course having four kids, it would be a miracle if it was clean. It is kinda funny that I love a clean house yet I never have one. It's not just that I can't keep up with my little mess makers...It's mostly that I HATE house work with a passion. I know, I know, it has to be done...but why oh why does it have to be done by me?
Little Samantha is almost 20 months old and already seems to be something of a neat freak. She's always picking stuff up out of the floor and putting the boys' toys back in the box. Maybe she will grow up to love to clean and I can bribe her to live here forever! How awesome would that be?
My dear hubby gets pretty irritated by the mess. I feel bad...but apparently not bad enough to clean for him. However, I do sit around and think about cleaning quite often. Unfortunately, I rarely make it past the thinking stage. Poor Tommy.
Okay. So now I have come clean and you know my dirty little secret. I HATE HOUSEWORK!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Wow.....having one one of those days when I just wanna scream right out loud! My hubby will be home soon and I'll be mking a pizza run ALONE. This should help.
What an early start to the morning. The hubby's truck isn't working so we all had to get up this morning and take him to work. He had to be there by 6 am....Naps all around later!
Well maybe not for me. I'll be leaving the boys at the sitter and going to the doctor. I am growing tired of all the dr.'s appts lately. Seems we all have to go for some reason. And with 6 people in the family, that's a lot of appointments! Since the car accident the kids and I all have to go to the chiropractor 3 times a week now! Like I said, That is a LOT of dr's appts!
We got the kids report cards just the other day. They are both doing great. They are both on the honor roll! I'm so proud of them!
Isaac is still having real trouble reading. I am sure he is dyslexic. We will find out soon. It doesn't seem soon enough tho. He doesn't go for his eval. until January! It was scheduled sooner but we had to reschedule it. I don't even remember why now.
Tommy is doing great in school. It is hard to remember not to compare them to where other kids are at the same age. There is no such thing as the average child and I need to stop measuring my kids against and imaginary creature! One of the reasons they go to the school they go to is so they can work and develop at their own pace...so they aren't forced into the mold of the "average child". Isaac may not really learn to read until he is much older...especially if he is dyslexic. But that is ok with me. Once he learns to read school will get easier. Right now he hates it mostly because they want him to read and he feels like he can't so he doesn't even want to try. I think it's more a self confidence issue than anything else.
It is time to get them ready for the sitter. gotta go!